Sold this neckless

Bought this new cd and played this song a couple of times today.

You could be happy

You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go
And all of the things that I wish I had not said
Are playied in loops til it's madness in my head
Is it too late to remind you how we were
Not our last days of silent screaming blur
Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should've stopped you from walking out the door
You could be happy I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far
Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true
Just do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back don't think just do
More than anything I want to see you girl
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world
You should be happy no matter what

Snow Patrol Eyes Open

My rainy day fund

One self

I don't want to cry for you..

Cry for you cry for me I don't want to cry.....
Am so sick of just holding it together just wish for once someone could tell me that its going to be all right not like it really will be but I just wish I could just beleave....

Seems to be a lot of death in the air...

Well its been a hard month my mom passed one year ago and there is remberence of a lost dear friend at this time of year as well as the 18th year of my dads passing can this time of the year get any more depressing... So that is that I also lost a new dear friend this year. Death is a hard thing to look at and just see, and feel it.... Seems like something am getting a costume to don't care much for that...I feel am to young to get a costume to this don't really want to feel the fear.. Fear that I mite not be looking after myself like I should, what if I was to get sick what if it was my time I don't think I have done what I need to do to be done. I feel there is so much more for me to finish before am done... What if I die alone I don't want to. But sometimes I just feel I will. I was there this month when my good friend died this year. She really acted like she was going to beet it. She kept on saying when I come back to work she was a champer right til the very end.I didn't no her family well but they welcomed me with opened arms they were so glad that I was there for there mom... Apparently I was talked about alot by my dear friend the family could not wait to meet this person called Sam who is Sam... Sam was just a friend a true friend to the very end.... True friends are hard to come by especially to the very end... I miss you my friend I will see you in your next life time....

My good friend died ......

Beverly Cronin, Slide Curator in the Art Department Imaging Center,
died yesterday after a year long battle against cancer. Bev had been at
Smith since 1974.