So cafe is down 30% and my life kind of sucks right now and I hate alot of things and I just wonder what the fuck am I doing and why the fuck am I here in the first place everything I have worked so hard for is out of my control and I feel as I have no reason this really sucks. I can't make my ends meet and I really hate my real life what the hell do we do now... Is there any one out there? Is it just doing it on your own I really hate this doing it on your own thing were the fuck is the reward....