My mom is dieing right this min

And am sitting here typing this just got done with the most susseful night ever. Am booked at lest twice a week next month.I have to pull my self together right now becuase am going to say good bye it is going to be a very long night I love you MOMMMA I hope were you are going will be safe and warm. I really did not think this was how we would say good bye.............. I hope my tears stop befor I get there...

Am at my sisters

Waiting til my mom dies it is very strange to see what is happen about, am listen to my mom not really getting her breath over the baby moniter as well as listen to the rest of my faimly living there life it kind of reminds me of Xmass.

love

Don't pack your bag's too soon!

Breeze!

Get to bed early.

So I can get all caught up on all my rest I lie in bed to only see the moon shining so bright out of my window.I tell myself that it is only the street light and to just get your rest so I dose on and off and I awake one more time to see it shining right above on the crosses so strong wanting to go out side to enjoy.The memory of the moon is not what I need so I just roll over and over. To only awake to the sun shining so strong on the crosses just as last night....

This sucks.

Saturday night 8:05 and am ready for bed not even a good spot in this place to rest my head. My mind spining so fast that it needs to rest. when I try to rest my mind just keeps on thinking, thinking ,thinking what should I do next?

Did I tell you my ?

MoM

Is

Not going to be here much longer?

faboos take on friends

My so called friend told me today...

She would have coffee with me next year, This year was too much bloged up with school, As much as life, With polictics too boot. The world has gone crazy.... So we will all move on. To what makes us be so stronge ,I say to you, My Friend. I wish you nothing but well being. My mom will be long gone by then. My friend.....
Can you please tell me then what is a friend????

I thought I Believed

I thought this was something specail.

There is no time .

For the word Pretty in this world that we live in, it is only going to get worse and worse. The Gods are very angry!

Seems too be...

So it's a whole New Year I took a big chance this year. I opened my own place I always new that one day that I would have my own place. I never thought that I would own my own cafe.When I get to work I really can not believe that this is all mine. It's so much work with all that has been happening in my life. Lived here for almost five years and was wonder what I was doing here at all. Always trying to make ends meet and doing it all on my own, had a few drift in and out but no one seemed to stay. No one new what I really had to offer. I always told them that I had a lot to offer that they just had to have faith in me. Seems that they were the one's to me that needed a little help to just push them along. Well seems that I was right now there all fine and doing what I new they had in them all along... And they have moved on. Leaving me once again all alone. But this time for the first time in my life I realized that I really don't mind to be alone.I can do fine on my own just as I allways have. Am going to be just fine,I did something for myself and for nobody else.

Who is Sam?

Wow so here I am at my little cafe and none of my friends are really even there, Or feel the need to stop on by and see What I have going on. Friends, what are friends in the first place. Friends are people that you choose to let in and out of your life. Some stay and some just pass on by. What I find the most, is the friend that you mite think is going to slip into the cracks are the friends that sick around the longest. Sometimes the one your looking for is right there, all along....